In Loving Memory of Baby X
(November 2016) This is a re-post from my previous blog. Events and encounters recently have drawn me to revisit it for a number of reasons. I wrote this in May of 2014, a little under a year before I qualified as a midwife. This experience and my subsequent experiences relating to it have played their part in defining my practice as a midwife. For me it is one of the most important events I have written about. In memory of Baby X and the other angel babies… May 5th 2014 Earlier this year I observed an autopsy of an infant girl. This is my response to the encounter. There are no identifying comments in the text. My assumption is of cot death though of course this is not diagnosable at point of autopsy. I lost my own brother to cot death when I was 5 years old. I remember him vividly and I remember his absence in our home just as clearly. Our lives were never the same again; his loss is still felt now nearly 30 years later. Seeing Baby X brought so much of the pain bac...